Monday Musings: Split personality of a writer….

  MONDAY MUSINGS: Split personality of a writer….

I had hoped to have an extra-special post today.  As many of you know I’m preparing for the release of my first contemporary romance, SATIN PLEASURES, by the end of this month.  Alas, I must wait to share my new book cover and book blurb with you. The cover isn’t finished.  Sigh. With any luck, I’ll have it for you next Monday along with the announcement the book’s available for sale.

It drives me crazy when I don’t have control over absolutely everything!

There, I said it. I’m a control freak. A nice appellation is “Type-A Personality” but we all know that simply means that I worry things into perfection.  I write and revise and write and revise my manuscript pages daily.  This blog post will be revised half a dozen times as I write it.

Blast through an entire story and then go back and edit?  Pshaw!  Each scene I write is completely revised at least ten times before I type THE END on a manuscript.  I can’t go on until I’ve gone back over the previous 2-3 scenes.

In theory, I know this methodology was born as a result of the years I spent in revision as a pure pantser.  Yeah, I know it’s hard to believe I was ever a pantser but, believe me, it’s true!  I used to get up each morning and write whatever came to mind.  I didn’t plot anything and went wherever my muse took me.  I wallowed in the creativity I didn’t allow anywhere else in my life.  Completely unfettered, I wrote one of my earlier novels in eight weeks!

I don’t know where that writer went.  I can’t even pinpoint exactly when she disappeared into the mist.  It was a gradual thing and can be attributed to a number of factors.  Spending months, years in perpetual revision was only part of the transition.  I learned a lot about the craft of writing during that time.  POV (Point of View).  Characterization.  Plotting, etc.  Each skill I added to my repertoire made it more difficult for me to separate my creative side from my pragmatic side. When I made the subconscious decision to turn my love for writing into a career—yes, it was subconscious long before it became a conscious decision–my business background took hold, my stories became creative products, and the rest, they say, is history.

I’m not saying this transition was all bad. Writing a novel in eight weeks doesn’t guarantee the story’s good enough to publish.  Interestingly enough, SATIN PLEASURES was that novel.  Creatively, it wasn’t a bad story. In fact, it was a RWA® Golden Heart® finalist back when the only thing they looked at was the first three chapters and synopsis. (The book didn’t need to be finished then to be entered.  I only had the first three chapters and synopsis, but I was the Queen of Pristine Proposals!)  But I didn’t win, the story didn’t sell despite the fact several editors like many things about it.  I just hadn’t grown into my skills. I wasn’t quite “ready for prime time.”

I’ve since forged a comfortable balance between my creativity and my skills.  Well, most of the time, it’s a comfortable balance.  The editor perched on my shoulder does have 12-inch talons embedded in my creative soul!  I plot using the “W” technique I teach.  I focus my attention on making sure I use my technical skills to create a coherent, compelling story.  And my muse has learned to dance in whatever scene she wants in whatever order she wants. (Yes, I’m a non-sequential writer 🙂 ) Thanks to this alliance, I’m now ready to present my book to the world.

Yet, I’m discovering there are still things I can’t control.  Like my cover art.  My creativity doesn’t include drawing a straight line with a ruler, let alone designing the gorgeous cover I want.  So, I have no choice but to let someone else do it. Which means I have no control…and that just makes me crazy. 🙂

12 thoughts on “Monday Musings: Split personality of a writer….”

    1. Ha! Thought of that. Spent weeks trying to find inspiration with photos and finally realized the tone of my contemporary romances is lighthearted and cutesy. Only drawing captures what I wanted. Hence, the decision to find a real artist. My suspense novels are going to be whole ‘nother story though!

      Hmmmm, wonder if my decision to release the contemporary first has anything to do with the notion I’d have to learn photoshop for my suspense. 🙂

  1. Karen! I think maybe all writers have control issues. I know I can’t blow through the scene or book and then go back and edit. First thing each morning, I’m reading yesterdays words and revising! Then after the book’s finished…I go back and edit!

    Take are not alone!

    1. It’s good to know I’m not alone. Sounds like we both write a lot alike. I find going back and reading/revising not only shortens my revision time, but gets me back into the flow of the novel.

      Thanks for your encouragement!


    1. I love the title too, Jo-Ann. It’s the name of the hero’s lingerie shop…among other things. 🙂 Thanks for your best wishes! Have a great week.

  2. Great post, Karen! Was just thinking about this morning on my way to work. What I can control versus things I can’t. I can control putting my butt in the chair and producing words on the page (well, most of the time). I can’t control Reviewer’s calendars, ideas in the middle of the night, or dreams lol. But life is good 🙂

    1. We’re pretty much on the same page, CJ. Knowing we can’t control something doesn’t preclude us from waking up in the middle of the night and worrying about it anyway, does it? And, yep, life is good! 🙂

  3. Great post and so true! At least for me. lol I wish I could breeze through the first rough draft of a story and just write…but that editing bug is a constant with me and if I am starting out first thing in the morning with a WIP I just worked on the day before, I have to read at least the last chapter completed before I can move on. Like you, I think I edit my story so many times I can probably recite most of it word for word. LOL

    Looking forward to seeing your cover!

    1. I knew we were a lot alike! 🙂 We do work the same way. I can probably recite certain scenes word for word, especially chapters previous to any I struggle with, since it’s one of the methods I use to launch into a new chapter. If I’m having a hard time capturing the new chapter, previous one gets read to death. I would love to breeze through my preliminary rough drafts like I used to when I started but I think that ship has sailed!

      Some news on the cover front…the designer contacted me last night and I’m supposed to have the cover for inspection on Wednesday with aim toward final cover by Friday. Yay! Can’t wait to see it either. 🙂


  4. Sounds like I am in good company! Control / worry issues have always been my plight! I self-pubbed a book before it was cool, wasn’t entirely satisfied wtih it and am now having an editor work on it to make it PERFECT (right!) Good luck with your book!

    1. We do seem to be in good company, Kari. Maybe all authors are as angsty in one way or another. I have a feeling I’m going to face a lot of angst with the release of my first few self-pubbed books. Thankfully, I have a great support system, make that great critique group, who is helping me work out the specifics that aren’t quite my strong points. 🙂

      Best of luck with your editor and your book, too!


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